enter leafo's mind: I

the intro song - my previous-previous ex girlfriend, we had a really bad breakup and i just wanted to ask if shes alright after all of that happened. this song is also a direct sequel to "r u ok" wherein i genuinely wanna know if shes doing alright since i never got the chance to ask... 'r u ok' was the question in my mind for the longest time but the question i was able to bring out was 'r u alright'...... pretty much mean the same thing but on a deeper level, you'll get it :)

the whole meaning of this song is in the chorus itself. this song is also the very first song of mine where its been in a spotify editorial playlist lol. anyways, this song is about that feeling when you fall inlove at a young age but suddenly it just disappears as time moves on. i had the 'one four' idea for so long and im glad i was able to execute it just fine in this album.

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the album name and the first two part song i have ever done. this song took me three months to make cuz i did not know how to perfectly execute this. i really love the meaning and the metaphor behind this song; the first half goes on about why do i feel so shit and invisible to people like why do i never feel noticed anymore and as the tension builds up, we get to the second song where it explains everything (why im being ignored nd shit). the second song explains that my past lover has killed me and i was just an entity the entire time like a ghost. the metaphor behind it is literally the song title itself, you found what you love and it got you killed. a love and a heartbreak song into one ;) check the music video out here (directed by rainnier :o)

my previous-previous ex and i had a really complicated post-breakup. i dont wanna get into it too much cuz its actually just insane but overall, this song was written about when ive been holding on to the hope that she would return lol yeah. i kept the hope that maaaaaaybe yooooouuuuuuuuuuuud retuuuuuurnnnnnnnnnnn!i!i!ii!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!!ii!i!

an apology to my previous ex who i keep pushing away whenever i feel like shit. its an immature and selfish habit i built up wherein id push everyone away & isolate myself so i dont bring out anymore of my bad temper and its a really bad habit but ive been getting help and trying to be more open and communicative which is pretty cool i guess ;p

the first love song of the album after six tracks of singing about heartbreak, loss, and envy LMAO. i just cant stop thinking about this one girl who i knew for a long time, havent talked to her in years and idk i started to like her and eventually we reconnected after years so.......... W??? idk lol, shes beautiful as fuck and i wanna kms cuz im a loser n i js make music and thats it.

pretty short description but its just a song i wrote cuz i felt envious for a short period of time towards this friend i had. thats pretty much abt it.

a song for a ex-friend who ive had a terrible falling out with, lowkey sucks cuz i also grew up with that person too and it just hurts to see them switch up. ive had my faults too and i owned up to it but idk shit was weird and the whole thing was weird and one thing led to another and somehow the whole friend group fell apart. (yes my irls)...

the very first lead single which released last year (also the song that gave me hella views on tiktok lol, people discovered me from that vid). this song is about that previous-previous ex girlfriend of mine wherein there are 2 different versions of her: when we started dating and when she left. "i dont know you anymore" is a line i kept repeating in my head the day we broke up (i never directly said it to her) cuz the girl whom i loved was not the same girl who left me if yall get what im trying to put here. it sucks cuz i met her when we were really young (around 7-8) and we grew up together too. we started dating in high school then yeah she left but its okay cuz i got my bag up :p

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i dont really think its hard to miss but its just another metaphor i thought of wherein i imagined a scenario that she just never dated me instead, like how easy it is to rip a page off a book. the entire page is filled of us and idk i js imagined that she would tear it from the book. thats all lol.

my mental was really starting to wear me down when i was sixteen to the point i had thoughts of actually doing it. i found an old note i had written that i never got to finish cuz my friends (who i am thankful for) asked me to play roblox lol. even the simplest thing can do so much for a person and no one realizes it til its too late so im thankful for my friends cuz everything yall are reading, viewing, listening to right now would not exist if it werent for them. love yall bruh.

the outro song - i posted a video wherein i talked about the story of growth and how its really powerful as life goes on and how i want to share it with you all. i think its a beautiful thing idk. yall have seen me grow as a person and i love yall for staying with me. two-thousand seven in the title doesnt really mean anything since its the year i was born lol. but i just thought that maybe this meaning of a song would be a good outro. idk im buggin. this whole album i sang about heartbreak and loss and envy but here, i sing about two people who have kept me alive for years and i hold so dearly in my heart; my grandma and my dad. i cried to this the moment i heard it after making this and lowkey, a simple thank you isnt enough for everything they provided for me hahaha. check out the music video here